These birthdays are not exciting me anymore as they did before. So it's my birthday, but I'm feeling sad. I don't know the reason why?

Various thoughts are running in my mind.
Tears are dropping down without any reason. Yeah I know I'm wasting them. I'm happy but I'm not.

I ever think of getting married with someone who is completely stranger. What if he do not understands me and my dreams. Do I have to change for him and cook his meals everyday? And have kids with him and look after them and more over his parents, I'm not saying that I'll will not...