A mind game~

A story of two tales all wrapped up in one...I smile and laugh && make jokes with the best of them.. Showing up to the familyfriends bbq on the weekends && going out to see the newest movie...But I have to remind myself remember you can't show your grieving........It feels like sometimes is choking me..i can't breathe but yet I am....Behind Every smile I'm holding a Million tears..a thousand fears.. Heartbroken && devastated..Sooo lost and lonely.. I'm in a crowded room..No one knows the real...