Chapter 5: Sorrow and happiness.


I got down from bus, Mom took me to a side, my heart thumped very fast, anticipating that she had sensed our closeness and was going to give me a good beat down.
Instead my mom said to me that every one of groom’s house would be having their dinner by 11o’clock and then leave. She asked me what was my intention, whether to stay or to go with others.
I said that I would be staying; I wanted to enjoy the marriage till end.
“OK” said mom and she gave me permission to stay.
So again, as the groom’s party arrived there was all chaos all over the place of the bride.
Paree was again lost somewhere in the midst of the huge crowd.
I sat there at the marriage venue with the groom, Subroto.
The Brahmins were performing all rituals. I had nothing to do except idle sitting.
At times I saw Paree roaming all over the place busy in doing nothing. She was definitely having a great time.
Once she came to me my heart started to beat louder ---“Hey, why are you sitting like a duck over here. Come with me.”
While she talked to me she did not looked at me. And I was also not looking at her.
---“Err no, it is better here. Lots of ladies are always with you. I feel bit uncomfortable surrounded by ladies.”
Paree ---“Ummm….. Ok then sit. But don’t forget to have your dinner. Everyone is going to leave after dinner, only few friends of Subroto Dada are going to stay.”
I told her that I have got permission from my mom that I will be staying.
She looked at me inquisitively ---“Do you mean to say that I should also stay?”
---“Depends upon you.” I laughed out.
Paree, bit angrily---“Ok, you will come to know what I can do?” and she went away.
Groom’s party finished their dinner. Every one of my relatives were about to leave.
Paree was adamant about staying with the groom.
My mom tried to persuade her ---“Paree, no ladies are going to stay, how can you stay here. What will your mom think?”
Paree playfully embraced my mom ---“You also treated me as your daughter once, so in that sense you are also like my mom, so just give me permission to stay. Please please please.”
On hearing her pleas, my mom called me ---“Hey, you, take care of her she is going to stay here all night and look after her else you will be in trouble.”
Inside my mind I was laughing very loudly, but with a very obedient look on my face I nodded and confirmed them that I would look after Paree.
Paree winked at me. She kissed my mom’s cheeks ---“My good Didi Mom, thank you very much. I will not be a naughty girl now.”
We bid adieu to the groom’s party.
Paree then again went away somewhere. I saw Paree running down to the ritual place with my shawl around her.
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From behind, her twin fleshy bottoms, swayed beautifully in front of my eyes. I felt the urge to touch those soft mushy mounds and kiss those.
As the night grew older, the crowd got thinner. People from bride’s house were also leaving. From groom’s party, there were only five persons present, two of Subroto’s friends, eldest brother and Paree and myself.
The main ritual was about to start and it was already 12 o’clock in dead night. Paree stood by my side, close enough that our arms were touching each other’s. Paree’s fingers sometimes brushing on my mine sending electrical pulses on my arms. We were avoiding to look into each other’s eyes, by looking straight to the fire of the ritual.
One lady came to Paree and asked whether she needs to retire somewhere for some forty winks. She nodded her head negatively.
I requested Paree to take a brisk walk with me, which she obediently accepted.
We were walking down the lonely dark road. Paree wrapped my shawl closely over her body to get bit of warmth. Her arms folded across her chest as she walked close to me. She was looking down at her feet. Both of us were silent. I thought someone should break the ice.
So I muttered some strength in my voice ---“Paree, what happened, why you are not saying anything?”
Paree --- “So you think that nothing has happened? Do you?” Her voice trembled a bit.
---“What have I done?”
Paree --- “So you want to say you have done nothing? Lightning stroked me, do you know? I could not get up from that seat for quite some time.”
---“I just felt some urge deep inside my heart, to express something. That’s all.”
Paree was still looking at her feet, walking slowly ---“Everything went black in front of my eyes. The sensation, it happened to me like a lightening thunder.”
I stopped in the middle of the road, touched Paree’s shoulders and stood in front of her. I looked down at her, placed my right index finger on her chin and slowly pushed her face up. Her eyes were closed, lips shaking in some forbidden anticipation. Her long eyelashes adorned her beautiful eyelids. She still had her arms folded across her chest clasping my shawl around her tightly. I slowly bent down, brought my face near to her. I could feel her warm breath; I could even hear her heart thumping louder inside her chest. Her well shaped bosoms, heaving up and down with every long breath she took inside her. My nose touched hers. Even in the cold December night, our nose tips were sweaty. Our lips were only few millimeters from each other, but I could not gather enough courage to kiss her beautiful lips or say something she was anticipating to hear.
With a long sigh, Paree opened her big eyes, glistening with tears. Her nose tip became red. She broke the dead silence running between us, with tearful eyes and shaking voice she said to me ---“I can’t do, Abhi. I can’t do. Go away. Just go away from my sight.”Saying so, she ran towards the marriage venue.
I stood there in the dark lonely road, dumbfounded. Feeling very lonely, with no one around. I felt the urge to puff a cigarette.
While puffing the cigarette, I asked myself, what am I, Who am I, Who is Abhimanyu? I felt in somewhere in some dark corner of my heart, that I am a loser. My vision got dampened, probably by the smoke of the cigarette or may be my tear buds have started to flow. I have no right to hurt anyone. I have no right to hurt Suchismita in any cost or any sense. Something was not happening right.
Some relations were forbidden in our human culture. Both of us were social animals, lived in a society.
I was walking slowly, back towards the venue, engrossed in all these thoughts.
From distant I heard a male voice calling my name.
I looked up and saw one of Subroto’s friends calling me. Asking me to come quickly, the marriage ritual has ended and everyone was going to have their dinner.
As I entered the venue, I found Paree seated at a corner, with her face down, eyesight fixated to the dying fire of the ritual. Creamy skin of her nose had turned pink as rose petals. From a good distance I could see her long eyelashes soaked in dew drops of her eyes. Her back was heaving up and down.
Was she sobbing? My goodness, I thought. That was not at all a good sign.


Then, bride’s mother approached Paree and asked her ---“What happened to chirpy little Paree? Your newly wedded sister-in-law is waiting for you in the dining table, go and join them. Everyone is waiting for you dear.”
Paree straightened up, wiped her eyes and smiled at her. Bride’s mother took her away.
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Slowly I entered the dining place. I found that Paree was sitting beside her newly married sister-in-law, laughing and talking with her and having her dinner. I took a plate and finished my dinner quietly in one corner.
During the whole time our eyes had not met for a single moment. Vibrant Paree was lost somewhere.
After the dinner was finished, it was time to retire as it was already 2 am of night. So both the friends of Subroto came to me to ask whether I should be retiring with them or not. I said them I do not want to rest, I told them I would be sitting there at the ritual place in some chair and puff my cigarette and I will be alright.
They also went away. Bride and groom also retired somewhere inside the house. Bride’s mother escorted Paree along with her.
All alone, in the cold dark night I sat on a chair near the ritual place looking at the smoke bellowing out of the doused fire and puffing cigarettes. I was also feeling cold as Paree took away my shawl.
I lost the count of time. I did not even bother to look at my watch. My head was filled with all sorts of thoughts I could not explain.
I do not know for how long or how little I was sitting over there. I felt drowsiness creeping in my head.
Suddenly I felt a soft touch on my shoulder. The sweet fragrance of jasmine filled my nostrils. So at last Paree has come to me. I pulled a chair near me, Paree sat down facing me. I looked at her with expression less eyes.
There was a bit of soft smile in some corner of her lips.
She asked me ---“You are feeling cold?”
---“Hmmmm…..” I nodded affirmatively.
Paree ---“Ok, I have brought another shawl for you.”
---“Why don’t you give mine to me?”
Paree ---“No, this is now mine, forever.” She smiled sweetly at me.
---“Ok, be it…. As my queen says.”
Paree ---“I found, that you were puffing a lot of cigarette? Why, this is not good at all.”
I put off my cigarette (CIGARETTE SMOKING IS INJOURIOUS TO HEALTH).
---“There it goes, my last one.”
Paree questioned me ---“Why have you stayed here tonight?”
---“Just like that, I wanted to attend every part of a marriage ceremony. So I stayed.”
Paree ---“So, you were not staying for me?”
---“See, Paree, at that time, none of the ladies were going to stay. How could I know that you will stay?”
Paree slapped hard on my hand ---“You, are a big dumb fool. Why did not you ask me to stay then? You did not even bother to think how I could travel the long distance in bus all alone.”
---“Paree, I am really unable to understand you now. The bus was filled with people you know, your near and dear ones.”
She sighed away her face ---“You dumb ass, dumb boys. You will not ever, never understand the heart of a lady. Never.”
She angrily got up from the chair and was about to leave.
I took both her hands in mine and with a pleading look in my eyes ---“Please do not leave.”
Paree ---“Why should I sit? You are not here for me, you said that.”
---“Sorry, my angel, I am sorry.”
She sat on my left, and placed her head on my shoulders. She took my hands in hers, and gently played with my fingers.
I muttered ---“I do not know, where this relation between us will take us. I don’t even know what will be the end.”
Paree ---“I don’t want to know, Abhi. I live in present and I want to live my present life full till the brim. That’s all I know and I care about.”
I put my left arm around her thin waist and pulled her close to me. She nuzzled closely, enjoying the warmth of our embrace. Very gently I started to stroke her bare waist under the shawl, caressing the side of her soft belly.
I took her right hand into mine and brought her fingers near my lips. Paree looked at me. I gently touched her back of hand with my lips. Jasmine smell felt good in my nostrils. I took her index finger in my mouth and slowly licked and sucked.
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Paree ---“Ummmmm…….. Please do not do that. You are giving me a very tingling sensation somewhere deep inside me.”
She tried to free her fingers and at the same time she was brushing her nose and lips on the side of my neck.
I did not stop sucking her finger with my soaking tongue.
Paree squirmed in my embrace ---“Please, Abhi, Please do not do that.”
I could feel her soft wet tongue caressing softly on my jaw line. She was planting small butterfly kisses on my cheek and jaw. The fire of passion has been ignited between us.
I left her finger and looked at her face. As she was in my tight embrace, her hands came up to my chest, clasping the collar of my Punjabi. There was an intense passionate look in her deep black eyes, penetrating my soul to the core. I placed my right palm on her left cheek, and gently kissed her forehead.
Paree shook a little. Slowly I planted small kisses over her eyebrows and then over her eye lids. She closed her eyes, enjoying my little kisses on her face.
I then kissed the tip of her nose. Sensing that our lips will meet soon enough, my lips also trembled a bit, and I planted a small kiss on her shaking soft red lips. She clasped my collar hard, pulling my face to her and again our lips met, in a heated passionate lock.
At first it was only touch of the lips, but soon enough we found our tongues playing with each other and teeth chewing each other lips. I was madly sucking her upper lip and played with her tongue. Her breadth grew warmer and intensifying with every moment passed.
We felt that as if the world was going to end. Neither Paree nor I was willing to break the kiss. Intensity brewed up in the cold December night. She had taken my face between her palms and was caressing my cheeks. My right hand fingers went to her head trying to unknot her hair and clasp her head.
Suddenly she broke out ---“No, do not untie the knot dear, please. I do not want to create a scene here.”
We both were heaving in deep long breadth. What has happened felt like a storm crashing on the sea shore.
Paree’s eyes were vibrant again, as if she has returned to her old status.
I wiped my lips, which was by then smeared with the colour of Paree’s bright red lipstick.
I asked ---“Very sweet, very juicy. Ummmmm I love your lips.”
She wiped her lips and mouth with the back of her hand ---“You are very very naughty. Shoo away.”
Her face was lightened up again with a bright smile. I felt good, that she has regained her original nature.
Paree stood up, pulling me by my hand ---“See, it is about 4’oclock in the morning. We need to get some rest. Don’t you ever get tired?”
---“I get tired if you are not with me.”
Paree ---“Hey, bride’s mom has given the groom’s party a room to retire. But all my brother’s friends are with him and my new sister-in-law. The room should be empty. We can really snuggle in there.”
---“But what about your eldest brother?”
Paree ---“Ohh damn shit, yes yes, he might be sleeping in there. So what to do now? We can’t sit in this cold.”
I pulled her again and she bumped on my lap ---“Till you are with me I am not tired and neither have I felt cold, darling.”
Paree ---“This is dangerous out here; someone might have noticed us cozying up ourselves.”
---“Ok, Madam, as you suggest…”
Paree ---“Now let me go from your lap, we can just chat the whole night through. I do not want this night to end dear.”
But she did not tried to get up from my lap instead she wrapped her arms around my shoulder and looked into my eyes. I embraced her narrow waist tightly and pulled her more into me. Her soft buttocks felt like a creamy mass on my thighs and groin. Probably my manliness also felt the heat of her soft fleshy buttocks over him.
We were entangled in a tight embrace.
Playfully combing my hair, Paree asked ---“Sing me a song.”
---“Damn shit, Paree… the dogs will bark asking me to stop.” I laughed out.
Paree ---“Ummmmm…… you sang in the bus. So sing me a song again.”
---“Paree, let us now move. The sun will peep anytime.”
Paree ---“Yes, we should move in the house.”

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