Each time I look at this picture, it reminds me of two ladies that lived in the same hood, “the little timid sad girl and the lady that breaks boundaries now.”

I used to think I was cheated by Nature and my Maker. I was so blind and weak to admit I was wrong at my own obsession. I kept blaming. I kept hating. And the worst part of this feelings came from my friends. They would look at me and made a joke and their laughter had a way of making me hate myself more.

Yes, I was too blind to understand that I created the room for this “mockery,” i gave time to this “frivolity,” and shut myself out from the “truth.” No matter how I try to look at them, I only see the lies staring back at me. I wanted to hide from the mockery, the "bad teeth" joke, the "ugly face" laugh, the “iron-pressed" buttock, the height problem, the comparison, the hate and many of them.

I was that girl, who believed in moving the world and making things to happen; but also that lady, who hides away and wish to do them all in my hidden spot. I can say, I was not capable enough to face my pains. I shielded them, I accommodated them and carried them around.

I couldn’t walk out without someone reminding me of how small I was. It became so bad that I would only stand in front of the mirror, cursed my existence and blamed God for that. I would ask my parents, “why I was different from my siblings?"

Their answers never quenched my anger and I would explode and still collect beating too. Lol! It wasn’t easy though you know? Feeling left out from something you just want to belong.

I could remember the day I went to “Mr. Biggs” cause my school always take...