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After bootcamp..
Another week passed and my mind wasn't on Sam so much I wouldn't let it. I couldnt describe the feelings that I was having them being so mixed up. No phone calls from him said to me that he had given it a rest or so I thought. Me being self employed my hours were mine to do with as I wished. Monday morning I got up kinda late about 9 when I usually get up about 5. All day I wondered
thinking just how would it be to have a man in my life. I had been single for years an not looking for one can be a very dangerous thing of getting too use to being alone. I wondered just how would I be able to trust someone that I don't know after being treated so bad by someone I was in love with
So many thoughts was going on in my head and believe me after being dam near killed by a love lost will make you think if not it wasn't love. This man made me rethink everything I thought two times over. When I was at bootcamp I was safe because an instructor wasn't allowed to get involved with any of the clients. Then I was off limits that made me feel safe but he has both numbers and my address. I didn't give him an answer when he asked could he use the address yes or no. I wanted to say yes so bad I want him but scared as hell not of the man he's beautiful inside and out.
The whole scared thing revolved around being able to trust another man after being lied to so many times over and over again.
I didn't mean that he would be like that but he is a man and that's my conclusion. I got dressed about 10 and went grocery shopping not having nothing that I wanted to eat. When I got back I drove up my drive way in my yard.... I stopped on a dime standing beside his truck with his legs and arms crossed dam that's nice I thought. I can get use to that sight real fast I thought. I pulled on in got out West, he said speaking I just looked at him. I was too scared to say anything know I would tremble in talking to him so I downed my head.
Trying to be cool with the shit I walked passed him unlocked the door and went back for the bags in the car. He walked over reaching to help me with the bags taking two.
How did you find me I asked GPS he said.
It's beautiful here I see why you like being alone you've got your own little island all by yourself no neighbors within a mile he said.
Walking in he put the bags on the counter sitting down at the bar. I walked around putting away the groceries smelling his cologne touched my very soul. As I walked by him he touched the back side of my hand.
I looked him up and down black dress slacks a white button down shirt which he let hang out black boots. Now I was in my right mine but the things that I was thinking wasn't, it's kinda hard being civil when you've got what your body has been aching for for years sitting right in front of ya. Can I get you something I just got a new bottle of white wine it's not chilled no more but I kinda like at room temperature I said.
He got up walking around looking at different things manly me like I was a sip of wine made me bite my lip. All I wanted to do was unbutton that shirt my heart started beating so fast as he got closer to me. We didn't say very much as I pour his wine in his glass he pulled me having me to step across with his left leg between mine. My whole entire body shook as he leaned forward I could feel the heat from his body the harding of all his muscles. Once again I was in these arms with no complaints as I allowed him to touch me willingly, his hands slipped from my waist around to my back as he kissed me feeling teeth a little bites everywhere.
© "Cloud
thinking just how would it be to have a man in my life. I had been single for years an not looking for one can be a very dangerous thing of getting too use to being alone. I wondered just how would I be able to trust someone that I don't know after being treated so bad by someone I was in love with
So many thoughts was going on in my head and believe me after being dam near killed by a love lost will make you think if not it wasn't love. This man made me rethink everything I thought two times over. When I was at bootcamp I was safe because an instructor wasn't allowed to get involved with any of the clients. Then I was off limits that made me feel safe but he has both numbers and my address. I didn't give him an answer when he asked could he use the address yes or no. I wanted to say yes so bad I want him but scared as hell not of the man he's beautiful inside and out.
The whole scared thing revolved around being able to trust another man after being lied to so many times over and over again.
I didn't mean that he would be like that but he is a man and that's my conclusion. I got dressed about 10 and went grocery shopping not having nothing that I wanted to eat. When I got back I drove up my drive way in my yard.... I stopped on a dime standing beside his truck with his legs and arms crossed dam that's nice I thought. I can get use to that sight real fast I thought. I pulled on in got out West, he said speaking I just looked at him. I was too scared to say anything know I would tremble in talking to him so I downed my head.
Trying to be cool with the shit I walked passed him unlocked the door and went back for the bags in the car. He walked over reaching to help me with the bags taking two.
How did you find me I asked GPS he said.
It's beautiful here I see why you like being alone you've got your own little island all by yourself no neighbors within a mile he said.
Walking in he put the bags on the counter sitting down at the bar. I walked around putting away the groceries smelling his cologne touched my very soul. As I walked by him he touched the back side of my hand.
I looked him up and down black dress slacks a white button down shirt which he let hang out black boots. Now I was in my right mine but the things that I was thinking wasn't, it's kinda hard being civil when you've got what your body has been aching for for years sitting right in front of ya. Can I get you something I just got a new bottle of white wine it's not chilled no more but I kinda like at room temperature I said.
He got up walking around looking at different things manly me like I was a sip of wine made me bite my lip. All I wanted to do was unbutton that shirt my heart started beating so fast as he got closer to me. We didn't say very much as I pour his wine in his glass he pulled me having me to step across with his left leg between mine. My whole entire body shook as he leaned forward I could feel the heat from his body the harding of all his muscles. Once again I was in these arms with no complaints as I allowed him to touch me willingly, his hands slipped from my waist around to my back as he kissed me feeling teeth a little bites everywhere.
© "Cloud
