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Journey towards womanhood.. EP-2
Let’s dig into the second character of the story: Sarah... Sarah and Steven fell in love with each other at their common friends Wedding Reception. Sarah was M.Com and Steven was a chief executive manager at an well known automobile company & was doing his best financially. Sarah and Steven dated for one and half year and then finally decided to settle down. Sarah and Steven looked beautiful together as a couple and seemed like perfect match, made for each other. Sarah was staying with her in laws in a lavish bungalow with beautiful garden along with swimming pool. All modern amenities were making their life warm and comfortable. Sarah choosed to be a homemaker and Steven was working. Her in laws were also very generous and kind and loved Sarah like their daughter as they had none. Steven and Sarah both had common passion for travelling and exploring. Every month they used to travel around India and once a year a foreign trip. They were happy and enjoying life as it comes. Sarah and family were at wedding of some of the cousin brother of Steven and few relatives were enquiring her about planning for kids.. She smiled and answered very soon but thoughts were pondering in her mind about having a child as she realized it had been three year passed for their marriage. Sarah and Steven decided to have a baby and were trying and praying to almighty. Now years passed by, they were on their 7th wedding anniversary with sadness as they were fruitless. Neighbours and relatives had already judged her with the conclusion of she wont bear a child. So nobody questioned her like they did before. Few were still asking about her treatment and problems not out of care but curiosity to know so that it becomes a hot topic of gossip in their groups. Such a typical and monotonous thought process, marriage then baby compulsory with in a year or so. Clouds of sadness had covered their happiness. Sarah was diagnosed with an unknown infertility. She was going through hell lot of infertility treatments. No baby and so tension, & tension is there so no baby, this was the state Sarah was going through. Lot of medication and steroids made her feel week. Steven was medically fit. Almost they had done 15 IUI cycles and tried IVF for 4 times, but nothing worked. They were financially strong so could afford the treatment. What about someone poor?? No hope for them?? Finally they gave up on treatment. It was now 10 years passed by. Sarah was depressed as she felt her Womanhood is incomplete without becoming a mother. She wanted to experience a tiny little body created in her own womb, tickling and kicking her inside and making her feel a complete woman a mother…. She used to observe a pregnant dog every day from window of her room, till small puppies arrived. She got immense happiness to see those small puppies and wondered how beautiful it is to produce same form of being from inside of us and same like us. Cats & dog’s, insects and all creatures can reproduce then why not me oh God? Why in my life I have to suffer in such a way?? My sisters and cousins all got married after me and have babies and I still same, why me only oh God?? There are no answers to few questions and one of the common question is Why me?? In any auspicious occasions like baby shower, marriage or few some traditions like “Oti bharne”, I don’t know what it is called in English, relatives and stereotype typical aunties very tactfully avoided her as she was barren as they believed negative effect can happen on their daughter or daughter in laws. Sarcasm total sarcasm. A barren or widow women, are they in their state by choice?? Instead seek and take their blessings and give them importance. Dimension of your thought process build’s your character and attitude which reflects in your actions.. But few stereotype people wont have depth in their thinking reflecting by their senseless behaviour. All this caused Sarah to go in a shell of her own world where she could be the way she is and no judgements or torments. Steven loved Sarah a lot and couldn’t see her in this state and even her in laws supported her. Steven was rather doubly sad as he loved Sarah and could not see her in this sadness and even he knew deeply inside he couldn’t be a father yet. one of the Sarah’s quoted poem as pain and agony makes you a writer, not in all cases off course. Oh Lord hear my cry, I am tired of all kinds of try. So much pain it is to bear, hear my prayer if you really care. My eyes are dried, my heart is harden, my soul is desperate, my life cannot go further unless I experience being a Mother. I am holding the tip of the rope, I have only you as my last hope. Reward me with a fruit of a womb, will be pleased and thankful till I end in a tomb. Sarah cant mass produce a child, is it her fault?? Does only by becoming a mother you are a complete woman??? I believe a woman is a mother by heart and not by womb only…… conclusions of all four stories will be given at last… be ready and stay tuned to explore about Sareena and Carol.