2003 of July 30 at 12:05 am Jacoby Earl Bennett 6 lbs 12 oz. 21 inches long was the day I've begun to understand just how God's love really was still very young at the time only 18teen just finished high school.I knew all those years before I had no one to share my love what I was holding inside.God blessed me with him.He would of had a brother sadly when I was just 6 months there daddy pushed me down the stairs.This man didn't have a soul at all.when I found out that I got pregnant he just started working at the grocery store in town.Not even a day he told me he thought I should have a abortion for he said at the time I was on alot of medicine from the doctors he said he would come out something wrong with him.I didn't think much about what he said till he pushed me down the stairs.After he pushed me down the stairs he started beating on me bringing other girls into the house have sex what ever he wanted.If I would say anything about what he was doing wrong he would hurt me. I was not even out of the hospital a week after having Jacoby.I was in the kitchen doing the dishes and all.He walked by me I had thought I was to busy cleaning and all boom my head hit the side of the kitchen sink. He hit me hard so many times till I black out till everything became blurry.When I woke up there was blood all over me the kitchen floor and all.My uncle took me to the hospital at the time I didn't know I was pregnant for Dakoda Victor Lee Bennett. knowing that I was rapped numb me.The only thing that took my mind from me thinking about what he did was what God blessed me with Jacoby.Clayton didn't show back up not till I was already months pregnant.I knew I was pregnant before 4 weeks because from where he did what he did the doctor had to stick me up.My Doctor gave me a CHOOSE to have a abortion because of what I went through.As soon as I heard his heart beat I couldn't.All most ever day when he was there he would beat on me and rap me. Because after all he did I didn't want a thing to do with him.Sadly I didn't have a say if he could stay or not.For my grandfather pretty much gave me no CHOSE on who I dated or who I could be with. November 18teen 2004 9:30am Dakoda Victor Lee Bennett was born 6 lbs 10 oz. 20 inches long. The whole time I was pregnant with him my grandmother and all thought I was going to have a little girl.Jacoby the whole time said that it was his little brother.Even when I went into to see the sex the doctor couldn't tell. I am so glad I didn't give them up.Those 2 boys open my eyes helped me in so many ways to understand see others as Christ would.They shown me how to find the good in others in the day when things went bad.Jacoby is 18teen in college to be a cop as well a preacher.Dakoda is 17teen him and his brother are wanting to open a body shop fix up people's cars and all that don't have the money for free. They have old souls.I am so proud of them.
© carolyn L Barbe