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Her Journey to the finish line.
The #WritcoStoryChallenge
Does life give us a second chance? The race had begun and he/she wondered if he/she would win this time round. Sipping her coffee and looking out her window. Her mind was full of thoughts this morning. Thinking back on her life and all that she has been through. The time she spent with her family three months, the end of last year. Did her a world of good. She has learned how to let go of past pain. Now she is spending most of her time running after her dreams.
Last night she received a message from a guy she haven't heard from well over a year. A few years ago, when she was still starving to find love. She decided to check out a dating site. That's how she met Superman. He popped in and out for a year or so. It never was going to be nothing more then, I guess you'd call it " friends with benefits". Back then she thought if she held on it may become something more. It never did. She wasn't really looking when she bumped into the guy that would later brake her heart. But that was when she let Superman go. But she didn't want to lose his friendship. Either way, she talked to him this evening. It seems he is going through a heartache himself now. She can't help to feel bad for him. She had told him how she just finally gotten over a heartache. That lasted for a year at least. She went into a deep depression for many months. After giving all of herself. And forgetting that she still mattered. It had been about three years, she hadn't been in a real relationship. Self love is what she was missing. In order to give that, she first had to go to the core of the problem. And that went all the way to her childhood. So she loaded up her suitcase and decided to head north. It started out to be a three week trip. "lasted three months" For the most part she had a nice time. But she also found herself observing a lot. Realizing her mother somehow couldn't help the way she was. There were days in the middle of listening and observing her mother. Instead of saying something to correct her. She would just simply remove herself, and go up to her room. Because it was truly heartbreaking to watch. Learning how to forgive someone who doesn't apologize, a knowing she doesn't see anything she has done to be in the wrong. It becames a fight within for her. She shutdown. For about a week she stayed closed up in her room. Where she done alot of praying. By the last month things were really good. she had to learn to stop expecting. And just accept and move on. And she truly believes getting her dog Jazz. Helped her alot. Since she has been back home. She has become more at peace, she has stayed focused on self love. And she is chasing her dreams. She believes she is finally getting her second chance at life. Realizing happiness is something that starts with self. It's not found in another or in things. Yes, she still believes in love. And truly wants to be married again one day. But right now, she still has work to do. Learning how to deal with triggers is probably the hardest part. Dating is out of the question at the moment. And she definitely isn't looking for " friends with benefits". When the time is right she'll know. Right now all she wants is to know herself more. And make sure she has nothing more to heal. She is in the middle of her second chance at life. And she is the reason for it. She didn't give up on herself. This has been one of the hardest experiences of her life. When this work began, she cried everynight for almost 2 years. She did really great for two years. still with moments. And then the Heartbreak happen. And she slid downhill. jumping completely off the tracks. She is learning still and still releasing. With every release she is getting closer to her victory. Staying focused on herself growth. She smiles when she thinks to herself. How far she has come. She is in no way perfect. She doesn't want to be. She just wants to be herself. Free of all her past pain. Because when she does decide, she is ready to invite someone into her life. She has to have a knowing that it'll last her earthly forever. No more repeating cycles. She wants the fairy tale. True real love. Someone running off the same vibe as she does. Someone who has truly went deep within and thrown out all the trash too.
Does life give us a second chance? The race had begun and he/she wondered if he/she would win this time round. Sipping her coffee and looking out her window. Her mind was full of thoughts this morning. Thinking back on her life and all that she has been through. The time she spent with her family three months, the end of last year. Did her a world of good. She has learned how to let go of past pain. Now she is spending most of her time running after her dreams.
Last night she received a message from a guy she haven't heard from well over a year. A few years ago, when she was still starving to find love. She decided to check out a dating site. That's how she met Superman. He popped in and out for a year or so. It never was going to be nothing more then, I guess you'd call it " friends with benefits". Back then she thought if she held on it may become something more. It never did. She wasn't really looking when she bumped into the guy that would later brake her heart. But that was when she let Superman go. But she didn't want to lose his friendship. Either way, she talked to him this evening. It seems he is going through a heartache himself now. She can't help to feel bad for him. She had told him how she just finally gotten over a heartache. That lasted for a year at least. She went into a deep depression for many months. After giving all of herself. And forgetting that she still mattered. It had been about three years, she hadn't been in a real relationship. Self love is what she was missing. In order to give that, she first had to go to the core of the problem. And that went all the way to her childhood. So she loaded up her suitcase and decided to head north. It started out to be a three week trip. "lasted three months" For the most part she had a nice time. But she also found herself observing a lot. Realizing her mother somehow couldn't help the way she was. There were days in the middle of listening and observing her mother. Instead of saying something to correct her. She would just simply remove herself, and go up to her room. Because it was truly heartbreaking to watch. Learning how to forgive someone who doesn't apologize, a knowing she doesn't see anything she has done to be in the wrong. It becames a fight within for her. She shutdown. For about a week she stayed closed up in her room. Where she done alot of praying. By the last month things were really good. she had to learn to stop expecting. And just accept and move on. And she truly believes getting her dog Jazz. Helped her alot. Since she has been back home. She has become more at peace, she has stayed focused on self love. And she is chasing her dreams. She believes she is finally getting her second chance at life. Realizing happiness is something that starts with self. It's not found in another or in things. Yes, she still believes in love. And truly wants to be married again one day. But right now, she still has work to do. Learning how to deal with triggers is probably the hardest part. Dating is out of the question at the moment. And she definitely isn't looking for " friends with benefits". When the time is right she'll know. Right now all she wants is to know herself more. And make sure she has nothing more to heal. She is in the middle of her second chance at life. And she is the reason for it. She didn't give up on herself. This has been one of the hardest experiences of her life. When this work began, she cried everynight for almost 2 years. She did really great for two years. still with moments. And then the Heartbreak happen. And she slid downhill. jumping completely off the tracks. She is learning still and still releasing. With every release she is getting closer to her victory. Staying focused on herself growth. She smiles when she thinks to herself. How far she has come. She is in no way perfect. She doesn't want to be. She just wants to be herself. Free of all her past pain. Because when she does decide, she is ready to invite someone into her life. She has to have a knowing that it'll last her earthly forever. No more repeating cycles. She wants the fairy tale. True real love. Someone running off the same vibe as she does. Someone who has truly went deep within and thrown out all the trash too.
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