Should I wait or move on??
I saw her in my dreams again…I haven't seen her for over 4 months now and we don't even talk anymore. When we were together, I never thought that such a situation would ever arise. We shared everything, starting from our secrets. We used to help each other in our studies. It was all so good but now we have become strangers.
We view each other stories now and that's it. In the last couple of months when we were together, we had a lot of fights even for very petty issues. In some of the cases, she was wrong and in some, I was wrong. Maybe we weren't matured enough to refrain overselves from stop fighting?
As things between us started deteriorating and was on the verge of breaking down, I asked her,
“Let's hold back each other one last time, maybe that could change these scenario”
But she gave no answer…it was like she just wanted to get rid of this mess and ironically all things came to an end on Valentines day
Then I saw her again, one last time after the last exam of our boards, we just had a little talk and then we wished all the best to each other and that was the last time we saw each other.
The first few days after break up was so tough and not to forget, my board exams were going on. It was my first relationship.She may too had a tough time I guess. After my boards got over, first fortnight was really difficult getting over her. But things started getting better after that. Some days, I used to spontaneously see her in my dreams. Fast forward now, I've almost got rid of the unhealthy attachments I had for her, but still sometimes I think about her.
I always wonder, doesn't see ever think about me anymore? Was my impact on her so less? She seems happy now by looking at her stories, which I'm also happy to see her like that but still it mess around my mind over her attachments towards me.
Now should I move on or wait?
If any hypothetical situation arises of we being together, I probably would turn it down. But alas things are easier said than done, those little moments we had together may pull me back towards her. It's a messy soul constantly fighting to listen to the heart or mind. Maybe, if she tried to hold things back, I probably should have waited.
Honestly this incidents changed my perception of relationships. I still got few unhealthy attachments left for her, which I want to get over soon. I learned a lot from this but I do want to know your opinions over this :)
P.S. - We are both under 18, so try to be a little considerate 🙂
© Maniiish_29
We view each other stories now and that's it. In the last couple of months when we were together, we had a lot of fights even for very petty issues. In some of the cases, she was wrong and in some, I was wrong. Maybe we weren't matured enough to refrain overselves from stop fighting?
As things between us started deteriorating and was on the verge of breaking down, I asked her,
“Let's hold back each other one last time, maybe that could change these scenario”
But she gave no answer…it was like she just wanted to get rid of this mess and ironically all things came to an end on Valentines day
Then I saw her again, one last time after the last exam of our boards, we just had a little talk and then we wished all the best to each other and that was the last time we saw each other.
The first few days after break up was so tough and not to forget, my board exams were going on. It was my first relationship.She may too had a tough time I guess. After my boards got over, first fortnight was really difficult getting over her. But things started getting better after that. Some days, I used to spontaneously see her in my dreams. Fast forward now, I've almost got rid of the unhealthy attachments I had for her, but still sometimes I think about her.
I always wonder, doesn't see ever think about me anymore? Was my impact on her so less? She seems happy now by looking at her stories, which I'm also happy to see her like that but still it mess around my mind over her attachments towards me.
Now should I move on or wait?
If any hypothetical situation arises of we being together, I probably would turn it down. But alas things are easier said than done, those little moments we had together may pull me back towards her. It's a messy soul constantly fighting to listen to the heart or mind. Maybe, if she tried to hold things back, I probably should have waited.
Honestly this incidents changed my perception of relationships. I still got few unhealthy attachments left for her, which I want to get over soon. I learned a lot from this but I do want to know your opinions over this :)
P.S. - We are both under 18, so try to be a little considerate 🙂
© Maniiish_29