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Alone Bird
I thought that I shall only live for others. I make me, modify me in to any form for the happiness of my friends and family. I trying my best to keeping them happy but I don't.
I failed in every situation. Always my motive is to give them happiness but the conversation between us brings them sadness. I do my best to complete my all responsibilities but they think I never does anything. I don't know why these are happen but I tired from all these things. Tired from evry try that I make to see a smile on their face but it returns with a big argument that I am wrong.
Only because of them I choose all the things, career,work all which are only increase their reputation and never be affect them. I completely forget about my passion, dream , wish all things but they told me I never think for them. I never wants their happiness . I am a careless and bad girl who only wants to prove right herself beyond all of them.
I only wants to when all are became fine and they really understand that I am not bad. From that age when child's play with their toys I try to improve myself only for them till today , but they never understand this. When all these back pages are come to my present memory the tears are automatically flows from eye. I cried a lot in a closed room by hidding out myself.
From my known stage they don't see a drop of tear in my eye. They believe that I am never cried. But hahaha.. the true fact is I cried whole night after evry arguments, but hidding myself. I know I have not capability to do anything but these tears gives peace to my heart. Gives the internal courage to make stand once again.
But believe me now a days I am so tired by always thinking for themselves. Now I only think for myself, my emotions, my feelings and also my dreams. The persons who never understand me in this fifteen years from my birth I don't feel that they understand me later. I have only one responsibility that I am completing my all duty for them with time but from now I am just trying to making me enough capable that I fulfill my own dreams.
I failed in every situation. Always my motive is to give them happiness but the conversation between us brings them sadness. I do my best to complete my all responsibilities but they think I never does anything. I don't know why these are happen but I tired from all these things. Tired from evry try that I make to see a smile on their face but it returns with a big argument that I am wrong.
Only because of them I choose all the things, career,work all which are only increase their reputation and never be affect them. I completely forget about my passion, dream , wish all things but they told me I never think for them. I never wants their happiness . I am a careless and bad girl who only wants to prove right herself beyond all of them.
I only wants to when all are became fine and they really understand that I am not bad. From that age when child's play with their toys I try to improve myself only for them till today , but they never understand this. When all these back pages are come to my present memory the tears are automatically flows from eye. I cried a lot in a closed room by hidding out myself.
From my known stage they don't see a drop of tear in my eye. They believe that I am never cried. But hahaha.. the true fact is I cried whole night after evry arguments, but hidding myself. I know I have not capability to do anything but these tears gives peace to my heart. Gives the internal courage to make stand once again.
But believe me now a days I am so tired by always thinking for themselves. Now I only think for myself, my emotions, my feelings and also my dreams. The persons who never understand me in this fifteen years from my birth I don't feel that they understand me later. I have only one responsibility that I am completing my all duty for them with time but from now I am just trying to making me enough capable that I fulfill my own dreams.
