Now, I know...I know you'll never see nor read this or ever know these words of mine but I just wanted to talk to you one last time

So hey, do You remember that night we met? You were 17 and i was just turning 16


How we would round the town till 3am just messing around while we escaped our parents and the stress of life?

Do you remember how You always told me that better was ahead not behind so to never face away what's near? I do

And I remember how we always promised each other to withhold one another no matter what storms we faced

I remember it, I remember it all

But one thing I'll never forget is that night, the glow in your eyes and how happy you seemed as if you had the world...

And now... I'm here left haunted with a pain in my chest that I can never rid no matter how long I cry

And how I can never remove your picture that's painted in my head or how I'm haunted by your laugh I hear again and again randomly through the day

And I'm torn by that smile of yours that's burned into my brain...and its hard, so hard not to allow myself to break everytime i hear your name it kills me... my God it kills me to even think that maybe if I wasn't so numb and allowed you in and maybe if only you knew that...well, maybe if you knew how much I loved you and needed you then maybe...just maybe you would have seen through and I wouldn't be stuck breaking missing you

But I'm now 26 while you're still 17...an angel too young taken forever watching down on me
© It's Odessa