When I'm upset......

I shut myself down.
I have no motivation for anything.
I tell myself nobody cares,
even though I know some do.....

I think about all of the negative things
I could possibly think of.....

I give myself all the pain
thinking I deserve it.
I'm not sure why I do that
but that's just how I am.....

Nobody knows the real me.
Nobody knows how many times
I have cried in my room
when nobody was watching..

Nobody knows how many time
I have lost hope , how many times
I have been let down....

Nobody knows how many time
I have felt like I am about to snap,
But I just don't, for the sake of others..

Nobody knows the thoughts that
go through my head when I'm sad,
how horribly they truly are...
Nobody.... Knows.....me....

© 💜 purple you..