Under a cloudy dark sky, he told me with a disappointment in his voice," you know what actually?! you don't love me, to be honest. you're with me just for the sake to forget your past!" his words were as sharp as the sword blade for me. It shattered me into million pieces. My love for him started questioning me that do I even exist? I was lost. Trying to fight with a lot of feelings. "How can it be like I don't love him?" I asked myself. It's just because of the harsh Situation around me from the past nine to ten years I have developed a cold nature. It wasn't like I was changed or I didn't love him. I wanted to tell him that I am feeling the same pain as him. The pain that I gave him but wasn't just hurting him. It was killing me too cause I never wanted to do this to him. I wanted to tell him I care for him, I love him a lot, I have huge respect for him but my inner soul kept torturing me that you don't love him? So Does that mean you're using him for the sake of yourself?! And I knew that wasn't true. I wanted to keep every thought, every feeling of me in front of him. I wanted to tell him I am sorry and I love him but all I did was remain silent.



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