PART ONE.
What is love,how am I supposed to feel when I Love someone,how do I know that this person actually loves me, are the sweet nothings that he wispers in my ear proof that he loves me. what kind of emotions come with love, happiness or sadness, hatred or madness. either way I found the answer to my question in the hardest and most painful way.
"Lizzy, my love",he called out to me as I hugged him to welcome him home. He had gone on a business trip for almost three months. l had missed him so much that I started crying as soon as I hugged him. He pulled me away from him and said,"Lizzy, I have some great news,well.......it may not be great News to you but I would really appreciate it if you could accept what am about to tell, please,this is important to me." I wondered what could be so important that It couldn't wait."Of course,am sure whatever you have to say is important so let's hear it", I said as I closed the door behind him and took a sit on the couch.
He sat down next to me and took my hands into his. He seemed to be somewhat nervous and at a loss of words. His nervousness was also making me nervous and curious but I dear not to say anything.
He took a deep breath and said,"you know I Love right? and I know that you love me too. You may think I only did this for me, but I want you to know that I did it for you too", as he said these words I become even more nervous and I knew that whatever it was it wasn't going to be good. just then the door bell rang, as he stood up he said,"I think it's better if I show you because I can't put it into words". when he opened the door I saw a woman standing at the entrance and she was pregnant, about six or five month pregnant. My heart started beating faster and my eyes could not believe what they were saying .
He held her hand and guided her into the living room and sat her down.He stood next to Her and said ," Her name is Katherine, Katherine this is my wife Lizzy." what is she doing here,I asked." I don't want this woman in my house tell her to get out right now!" I shouted at the top of my voice.
he looked at me with a puzzled look and he seemed to be shock. I stared at the woman's belly and I knew all too well what it meant,but......I was scared to asked about it.
"she is carrying my child,and she will be staying here with us from now on." I bowed my head down and shook it as much as I could.My eyes got teary and I could no longer hold the tears back and they just started falling."what do you mean she's carrying your child ,did you maybe do one of those surgery", as I said these words my voice was trembling and the tears just kept falling.
"please, Lizzy, am begging you to accept her and the child, please!!?
"how long have you been cheating on me!? was it fine, leaving me here all alone?" He then moved closer to me and hugged me tight in his arms, the warmth of his hands reminded me of the good days we shared,But now this warmth suffocating and it no longer provided any sort of comfort. "you can't do this to me,you said that you would accept whatever I had decided on, don't you remember? And you can't bleam this on me,if anything it's your fault for being unable to have a child, I mean,we have been married for three years and nothing!........... You know how much l have longed for this, having a child is one of my dreams. so please I would appreciate it if you would understand my feeling."
The words that came out of his mouth hurt me more then that woman sitting in my living room with her huge belly. " I understand, it's was my fault for not being able to give you a child,so do whatever you want....." I said to him while wiping bitterly as I pushed him away.
I looked at his face and he had this relieved expression,he seemed not to care for my feelings .He Rushed over to Katherine and this.....just made my heart break even more.
I Stormed out of the house wishing and hoping that he would come after me ,but this was just my wishful thinking.....