There it was again the beep beep beep of my alarm clock. shocked to be alive I swung my legs out of bed and tried to remember about what had happened. like a scene from the screen it all played fluidly and vividly not one detail missing. Then I tried to feel what the pain was like when the bus hit me. Not only thinking of the pain but trying to feel the whole experience again.

Beep beep beep. Like a dwroninf man bursting from the depths of a deep pool I sat up in bed gasping for air. Sweat running down my fourhead. Desperately I was scrambling for answers in my mind. How has I died this time. All I was doing was reliving the day's events. Thinking about what I had and hadn't done. Then boom back in the room. While I was trying to figure this out I hadn't noticed I wasn't alone. It was his voice that notified me he was there.

"I wouldn't make a habit of that if I were you. You see you are still mortal and well, your heart and mind couldn't cope with reliving death again and both shut down at the same time. Would you believe me if I could you that someone's rang nine nine nine for you. On top of that would you believe that the doctor said he had never come across a case like you in his carrier. He was so astounded by it he called in every available doctor to confirm his findings and they all agreed."

I flinched when he first started to speak but soon calmed down when I saw it was only death again.

"Back again what you going to do for me this time? Make me ilegic to the sun? That would just make things perfect. I would be like the worst vampire the world has ever known. All weak and pathetic and unable to die."

"No I thought it would be a good Idea to warn you about remembering how you died. Your feeble human mind can't cope with it and you will simply shut down. Then be back here."

"Well that would have been nice to know in advance. Anyway how many times do I get to come back to life?"

"That all depends on you."

Then I blinked and he was gone again. This guy was really getting on my tits. Constantly being what I was now thinking of as perpously vague. Then off he pops without a bye or leave. So I cant think about how I last died too hard or I will die again. Step one don't do that. Now to try and get on with my day again.

Today I will do simple things. I will go to work and pay particular attention to staying alive. That will be a first. The thought makes me smile until I look at my watch and remember the bus is early today. With death tuning up and having to figure everything out I had lost track of time. I hate my life. I'm going to have to make a run for the bus again.

While I run it dawn's on me that I have nothing to lose. no matter what I do I can reset and start again without any consiquenses. Life seems to have got a little bit more interesting and exciting. It feels like I can do anything for the first time in my life. I have what I think is confidence.