My friendship with Siphokuhle was something else you know it is full of smiles and laughter also we always stand up for each other I remember when I was in big trouble at the principal’s office and I needed somebody who would back up what I was telling the principal in order I win the cases at the principal’s office so I asked to free me and she did. She was one of the best female trusted friends I ever had and besides she got my back because I got hers. I really think that is what important in a friendship anyway sometimes I would wish that she was my girlfriend but then I guess we’re fine as friends you know those moments are just a flash back somehow I missed those moments like hell you know and besides she was my ride or die best friend.
So as I was chilling at home smiling after a phone call from Zusiphe who is my girlfriend and to be honest sometimes Siphokuhle is the pain in the arse but then I guess what friends are for. As she like to be told everything and I remember when Siphokuhle’s boyfriend broke her I was her shoulder to cry on anyway she was her brother from another mother. To be honest I liked the fact we were treating each other so important but what Siphokuhle didn’t like is when I feel comfortable with the other girls from school I guess she wasn’t worried about our friendship because it was strong but she wanted me to feel comfortable another Zusiphe but nobody else. Anyway I don’t blame her because she adores my relationship with Zusiphe and she telling that almost everything and the last thing she wanted was me breaking Zusiphe’s fragile heart.
The next day was going to be Sunday and obviously I was going to go at church as always so I prepared earlier just in case I woke up late anyway as I was preparing what to wear on church the next day my girlfriend Zusiphe phoned again telling me she doesn’t feel like going to church so she will come over so we finished what we didn’t finished the last Friday and I was a bit confused but happy at the same time. Anyway her parents were at the wedding with my grandfather and his annoying mean wife besides she took a weekend away so I guessed she wanted us to make our relationship fun and exciting you know the quality time and everything. However, we needed our time alone so that you will do whatever lovers do you know.
So suddenly I changed my mind about going to church after Zusiphe called anyway last time she was with at my village I remember we never had enough time and besides she didn’t stay so long. I know it’s funny not to go to church because we wanted to fulfill our lush of satisfaction but I guess the Lord will forgive us anyway for that I know. However, Christians believe that sex before marriage is a sin but the aim was for satisfaction and reproduction anyway I wanted to taste the juices of her forbidden fruit. Some call it the fruit of knowledge even Adam didn’t resist it so who were we to resist that also and the Saturday day was coming to an end slowly and slowly.
So I was like a hawk watching the sun to sunset and I remember I was still alone at home I had a day and half before my grandfather arrived and the neighbours never stopped to put an eye on me but I told myself I will deny everything. However, I was lucky because my uncle was always there to cover my arse out and sometimes I ask themselves why I loved him so much I guess they never knew what type of shit that guy pull me out of it. Of course as the day was going to an end I was enjoying the rest of it because at least the next day somebody was coming to get out boredom and luckily that somebody was the church girl who also my girlfriend. I guess she was coming to bless my Sunday day, the day of being in peace and mind your business. Anyway before I met Zusiphe I wasn’t really in the streets and I believe I took a good care of myself and I wasn’t really to all the girls I see on the streets. By the way I told myself that I will be a good boyfriend and a boyfriend only to Zusiphe because my grandfather raises me and taught to focus on one woman per time and in that case I might see the one for me and luckily I saw Zusiphe as a luckily woman for me.
However, I grew up in an environment where people are passionate about making a good life around those they love and as a young man from that environment I adopted a habit of knowing that no matter how much you have or can do in your love life Only one woman can have won your heart and the other ones might in the long run so I told myself one thing that one woman for one heart is alright for me. Anyway I used to get few tips from my grandfather and the other people who care for me that you can have all the girls you like but you don’t love them they might all be gone for the next day and that won’t hurt you but you can find others to replace with.
Honestly, I told myself that it is going be my second day spending Zusiphe so I wanted to make it something she won’t forget about I guess the moment so unforgettable as I was trying to figure it out what would it be. So what I did as it was less than 10 hours before the next day and the big day I wanted my dear girlfriend not to forget about anyway I don’t wanna lie as a guy I tried and with God’s grace I did pulled it through. What I remember with her I was somebody I didn’t know but one moment when she is away sometimes I felt like a lost sheep I know some of my friends were thinking that I was losing myself, crazy or something. To be honest I was in love with this Zusiphe character and I remember she even taught me one and two about love.
Speaking of love. She is a queen of heart because she had hr special way of twisting my arm and suddenly I will be so soft like a puppy. You know she would say “high” and I will ask how high thou it was in love somehow it felt like a spell luckily it was a spell I like being under because my heart and soul found a place they call home and everything was at peace. Even thou where I come from people say “a peaceful relationship is boring. They must be drama and fights so that it become fun”. Fortunately, she never believed in that so I was so easy and simple to be in a relationship with her I admire the fact that she knew that our problems are not to be told to friends because sometimes there is a destruction in a relationship because we listen what our friends are telling us then we forget what we were taught to live ourselves.
I remember that Saturday night I never even blink an eye like going to sleep or what but I never drinking water just in case I got dehydrated. However, that wasn’t important at that time because what was more important was Zusiphe and the day were going to spend together. As I told myself that I was trying to be awake at least midnight perhaps I was hit by a drowsiness and tiredness then I slept unexpectedly but what I remember correctly I was watching TV and you know those interesting late night Saturday night movies from E.tv. And if you are from South Africa where I’m come somebody will agree with me. Anyway I woke up the next day and I realized that I slept on the couch and on the other hand my body was so sore mostly my back but I took the blame to myself because I did that to nobody but myself...
Anyway I was morning already and I went to my bed to sleep freely as I was going to my room I realized that time on my phone was 06:00. And I got the 2 hours sleep and exact same time when I woke up my uncle was shouting my name on the gate and I quickly attended him and usually as he was taking the livestock to veld then bring the livestock later. I remember we didn’t talk much because he seemed to be in a hurry and internet that way. But when he was leaving he said to me “I will see you later son”.
I waved my hand as usual and he walked the livestock outside the gate to the veld. At least o was going to be left alone home besides he wasn’t there to stay anyway. I went to brush my teeth and I make myself a big breakfast I guess I needed the energy by the way and on top of that I bath then I was ready for the day and to spend a day with Zusiphe. However, you know how people like to mind other people’s business and how they like to put their nose in. I saw it all when I was walking with Zusiphe to my home and she was so beautiful as the picture I remember called Sosha the guy was living two houses from my grandfather’s house and he was a stoner. To those who don’t know a stoner he was a weed smoker sometimes when my grandfather is away I used to chill with him and we let it burn you know as easy like puff and pass.
Sosha was praising me like I was his King and I was getting used to it because ever since I dater Zusiphe he was praising me and sometime he would stop us just to compliment Zusiphe and she was enjoying it. I was okay with it because he wasn’t pushing an agenda or motive or something. We chilled into my grandfather’s house and as I was looking at her beautiful face while we were watching her favourite series called Game of thrones. I even came with a USB so we can watch it together I knew it was my first time watching it. I remember I was interrupting her as she was focused watching the series. For those who didn’t know what I was doing I was admiring her beauty like staring at her like a fool smiling alone and as I was smiling at her she would shift her focus to me and she would smile back...
“Why are you looking at me like that?” said Zusiphe while smiling.
“Do you blame for admiring your beauty” I said.
“I’m not really that beautiful you know” said Zusiphe.
“To my eyes you are as beautiful as snow white” I said.
“I know but don’t stop exaggerating” said Zusiphe.
“There is nothing that I’m exaggerating babe. You are so beautiful and smart that’s it” I said.
“I wonder why are you saying that” said Zusiphe.
“That is so simple” I said.
“Oh really Mr Gotyana?” Zusiphe asked.
“I’m telling the true” I said.
“Shearing is caring” said Zusiphe.
“I mean like I’m saying what saying because I love what I’m seeing” I said.
“What are you seeing babe?” Zusiphe asked.
“Your beautiful face and your beautiful smile” I said.
“Oh really? Thanks babe” said Zusiphe.
“You are welcome my love. You deserve being compliment everyday and before you sleep at night” I said.
“Oh thank you my love” said Zusiphe.
“Look at those beautiful lips. Am I allowed to taste them?
“Why not, but not now later” said Zusiphe smiling.
“Why not now?” I asked.
“Come on Ziwe. Okay one kiss” said Zusiphe.
“Okay come closer” said Zusiphe.
“Chill I was just trying my luck” I said.
“Well… your luck works” said Zusiphe.
I remember it was only 2 hours together as she came to my grandfather’s house during midday and we kinda had more hours before my uncle came from the veld with the livestock. Anyway I must when we are talking about good kissers she was fitting in and I like it when she kisses me back. I must say she has soft lips and tendering voice full of love. If her love was to be compared to anything else, I would say she has love of angel. So true with no doubts and fears about loving her back because I knew she has my back like I was her partner in crime.
What I always admired about her is that she was always there to keep company. Most importantly she supported me in everything I was doing even when there was a challenge of your young preachers who was held by the elders she stood for me. So as we were chilling at my grandfather’s house and the sun was about to be set but I remember when she said “baby it’s late now I need to go” as much I would love for her to go but I was so safe with her and I liked the fact that she has brains and beautiful I guess in a million of guys I felt so lucky for her.
“I just wish you were not leaving but I like to see going” I said.
“Are you a rapper now?” Zusiphe asked.
“No, not at all. I was just relating words” I said.
“Okay then if you say so” said Zusiphe and she smile a bit.
“I love you and thank you for spending a day with me” I said.
“You are welcome. Unfortunately, you will see me after two weeks now” said Zusiphe.
As I was surprised that why am going to see my sweetheart after two weeks. Anyway I’m a understanding guy so what I did is to understand. Simple as that. But what I loved about her is that as a focused young lady who knew what she wanted and I always there in her dreams and her future and it was kinda hoping for me because I always knew where we were standing Zusiphe and I. To be honest, I was happy I was in her dreams because she was in my dreams too and that made it no coincidence that somehow we belong together and our forever was the start.
So after we realize time wasn’t on our side as it was becoming sunset and I remember my uncle must be on his way from the veld I knew if he found us together at the house he was going to ask many questions and the same questions I was avoiding so when we were done doing whatever me and Zusiphe I accompanied her to the taxi so she can catch a taxi to the town to her sister then after that I believe she went back to Ngcobo because 30 minutes later after I accompanied her she called me and she told me that she left the town anyway I had a good time with her so not that I complain but I told myself I will miss her so much because she left memories with me.

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