"Ahh the brutality, the cruelty, beating me to fatality"

The way you just get into my nerves, no one else has ever affected me this much.
You annoy me, you frustrate me, you make me reach my limits of tolerance.

And the way you start to use poetic verses and rhyming song lyrics to keep your point during our arguments burns me out really. You make me feel like screaming at the top of my lungs.

In those moments when I am angry, frustrated, sad, I don't even want to see your face, I say a lot of mean things to you...I puke all my hatred, I blurt out the most horrible things a person can say to someone...

I mock you, I point out your weakness, I taunt you just so you would feel the same way that I am feeling...I don't know the logic, at that moment all I can think is to insult you in any possible way.

But you never say anything mean back to me in those times...

Instead, you turn all poetic and start blurting some fancy words. For instance what you said during our last argument"ahh the brutality, the cruelty, beating me to fatality" or "you are the entangled, entwined enchanting treasure of mine darling".

I mean are they lyrics of some song? or do you come up with this at the moment? I am here being mean and cruel to you...saying the worst possible stuff, all those things that I know hurt you the most...but you get all creative, instead of barking back at me...This frustrates me the most...what sort of defense mechanism is this? It feels like you block the logical, analytic part and switch to creative world instead.

© Rashmita Dhungel 💕