Trigger Warning: mention of abuse, discrimination, cussing and s*cuide

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Day by day, everything seems to fade out from my sight. Ever since the realisation forcefully crashed within; I became more void and apathetic to make other concern.
I despised how everything are supposed to turn out.
And I despised non other than myself when the word 'insecure' perfectly defines what I feel. Like a heavy dose of poison, the opposing images kept distracting me.
Giggling and laughters echoed in my ears again.
Are they making fun of me?
No, maybe not. I don't deserve to be given such attention.
Yeah you can say I'm like your normal side character;
I did not really dislike it, but the way I am contrasted with other's image gives me sheer disgust.
"Ah~ She's such a beauty! ..compared to this wench, who can't even be useful for once."
I flinched when I heard my crude parents' criticism; sizing me from the incomparable character that always make me look like a shadow. My dearest sister who glittered like stars, both blinding and unattainable. Her existence made me unredeemable from this society built from the people's garbage mindset.
And yet she was the total eye candy.
A precious gem polished to be showcased as perfection, as if a family treasure.
Sometimes it made me want to pity her.
When our parents' business skyrocketed and pretty much spread influence. They planned to prepare the next heir which is undoubtedly not me.
It was crystal clear that they'll choose Lynzie.
"Ohmy, I didn't knew Lynzie Moon has a sister~?"
"Whatever, she's nothing compared to her."
And I wonder who actually gave you the rights for that decision? To make comparison and make me a loser of a game that I never knew existed nor wanted to impart with.
"Ridiculous."
Worst than insects. Scums. Collective trashes who know...