True story.

After my break up with John, I always wondered if I did the right thing. Well, it felt right for the first eight months, but then I began to wonder when I started dating his best friend. Of course I liked Joe a lot, but something on him just put me off. Was it the nasty smell of sweat and bad breath, his father's opinions abd creepy behavior or perhaps just the way he lied to me all the time.
To be honest, if I stayed with him, I'm pretty damn sure his father would've hurt me since he always left the bathroom door open on purpose when I visited them and he always made me shower at night first. When we went to be, I was placed on a mattress between the single beds on which they slept on. I even woke up one morning and caught him staring at me. Well, it was the last anyway.

Point is, I broke up with Joe.

I began wondering what it was that I really wanted. I kind of have it figured out...not much, but a little bit of it. I told the whole group that I'm not interested in dating since John began throwing hints and Joe tried to get back together again.
John came to my house on a Thursday and we worked on a story he's writing. he kept trying to kiss me, but I pulled away, looked away from him and just spoke on about other things. Then it happened. I just realized that, we shouldn't search for answers in the kiss, we should rather focus on the actions and purpose of the kiss.

I knew all of a sudden

I don't love him and I don't feel bad for dumping him in the first place.

Sadly, our last visit as a whole group came. Funny how I was the only girl between four boys of which one is my mother's brother and is only four years older than me.
We watched movies like old friends will and played games. We played Truth and then Never have a I ever with mixed flavored sodas and chip (which was just horrible).
John admitted when Gerald asked him if he ever smelled someone's underwear, that he use to when we were dating (he would go into my luggage when I wasn't around) and with all honesty I felt sad and angry!
The same creep that John is, he admitted when Hank asked him, that he stalked me whenever I showered or got dressed.

That wad the very last time I saw then, except Hank. He's a caring guy and respects me so much. Gerald is still my family and best friend. Joe and John has written me off completely because they claimed that I played them. Well, I guess the friendship wasn't worth fighting for then.

The kiss already made it easier for me to know where I want to stand with John and Joe's reaction towards what John admitted showed he doesn't really care. So now as payback, Joe is posting stuff on social media (whatsapp and facebook) that hints on me. I just ignore it... And funny, he's dating my cousin now!

Well, I'm happy for them...

So this is just one of my stories in my boring life.