it was a day in july I was sitting in a cafe waiting for some one to come not gonna lie but I was actually very nervous i had a gf before but never had been in a date with someone I was checking my watch for the time and preapering myself to look less weird a possible suddenly the door opened and I saw my friend deep with his neighbor riasa the girl I was thinking , the girl I loved , the girl I was crazy for and honestly speaking everything was going according to my plan riasa sat beside she was talking with she was so close to me that her hair was touching my face but then suddenly that deep mentions her about her bf aditya and she blushed and started talking about her how she is emotionally attached with aditya how they met , how much both of them love each other and my entire date was turned into a disaster no actually into a night mare within a minute of second or so my friend deep noticed my change of emotions and taunted riasa by saying that "see riasa Satish is feeling bad when you are expressing your feelings for adi " riasa replied " well I have said Satish before that it is not possible and we are just friends I dont get that feeling with him he is good but he is too immature I want a man not a boy and he is not my type I am sorry but I must clear you Satish " I was quiet didnt utter a single wanted to cry but overcomed that shame with a weird foolish smile as if idc and after that she again continued to talk about aditya I was feeling jealous and hurt but couldn't show it because if I show it that jerk deep will make a mockery of me so I just pretended like I didnt her or noticed anything when I left the cafe it was raining as if god himself was crying for me back in my home I lied on my bed and wept my tears on pillow she was right "I'm just a kid " but so what dont I have feelings dont I have a heart gave her right to hurt me or make me cry I spent my entire night crying about this and falled asleep in midnight .


after that day life was again boring school , study , sleep , eat repeat but everything was normal i believed i had moved on until one day I met avish my old friend from school now we began to hang out with each other now one day while in a restaurant avish asked me " bro do you have a gf " I replied perhaps yes and showed riasa's photo and told avish everything he remained silent for a minute " did you moved one " yes I replied
he then asked me do you want to make her feel jealous I replied " yes if possible the why not " he told me yes it's very easy just pick up a random photo from Google and proclaim it as your gf " although it sounded cheap and weird but at the same time I had every right to be happy

so after a week I met deep again and he asked me what's going on chomu is every thing okay and I replied ya better then that witch and now I have a gf he replied what are you serious Satish show me her photo I showed him he was mesmerized by that photo and screamed " she is beautiful dude " what's her name I replied sana Ibrahim deep immediately quoted " is she muslim " I replied so what I love her and she loves me "the news of me having a beautiful gf spread like a wildfire and by next week I could see some of my friends were happy for me some of them were jealous while some of them thought I was lieing which I actually was I still remember I used to tell them that sana Pampers me spends all her money on me and make them feel jealous ha what a beautiful dayz those used to be I could just see riasa's face she was jealous I remember I created a dummy account on WhatsApp and texted myself showed people that sana was texting me but as house of cards my tower of lies falled soon when arogya another friend of my founded the same photo in his facebook account he immediately informed deep and riasa and both of them confronted me next day deep was like how dare you fool us bastard and riasa was like "that's why I am thinking how can such a beautiful girl be impressed by a nerd like satish "and everyone began to laugh at me no they were laughing at my loneliness or perhaps of my introvert nature deep interrupted riasa and said " oh come on pls my bf is so handsome I would I feel jealous for that nerd I was just feeling sad for that girl " her words were like hell fire burning my heart my eyes were getting wet i looked up into the sky and asked god " did i really deserve this " dont i have any right to be happy " why people i love always treat me like shit " that fictional girl was better then this witch atleast she never hurt me and I belive I have fallen for her and finally moved on from that witch so what if she is fictional i spoke all this in my mind deep observed my eyes and shouted " ok that's enough riasa leave him alone let's go guyz "
they left me as I if I was not there friend actually I'm just a kid a small innocent kid "ha damm my luck I walked away

ten years later

everything had changed back then I was a boy studying in my college now I'm a grown up man now with a 24 /7 job with a good amount of salary but some things are still same I still miss sana I think the only reason I miss her because she was the only girl who never hurt me never judged me misbehaved with me apart from my mother and another thing that is same is that I'm still a kid whose office is nightmare my seniors make fun of me while my juniors are scared and I know that there are people who have less then me and are still having more fun tonight while I was thinking all this the bus conductor just interfered in my imaginations with words " sir ticket "
I replied " ajay nagar one ticket " and gave him 20 rs he took it from my hand and went away after that I stared at a temple outside from the window a large crowd was gathered their it was probably the month between sep or Oct when temple's genreally became very busy as I was staring I saw a preety face actually a known face with a little bit of facial change perhaps because of post puberty or adultness it was sana ibrahim then suddenly a insecurity struck my mind and I replied to myself wait what sana ibrahim how can...