I was reflecting on my own life and saw the parallels within it. I was never able to see the absurdity of my own existence; it was kind of blurry and hard to discern. All my life has been a fight with this absurd feeling. I should have seen it before. Everything I ever built—myself and my life—was just a reaction to this event. It was my fight. I did not want to give it all up. I tried to escape this innate truth that I always knew. I was building a huge lie that I told myself, lie upon lie like brick upon brick, just to avoid seeing the sunrise. In the end, I lost my own self. I started to see only the bricks I built. I became just a reaction that refused to see the truth. When I saw myself in the mirror, I just saw my own shadow—the shadow I had ignored so much in the past. I am not some kind of exception. The whole society is led by this, trapped in their spider web of lies they told themselves.

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