i'm tired of my hair and my face
so sick of my tiny apartment that never truly felt like a home
and the fucking silence that fills it
it hurts my ears so i drown it out with bad tv shows that i don't watch, cause i'm just too tired to pay attention to anything but my thoughts

i'm so fucking exhausted of failing everything
and everyone
including myself

i just wish i could take some time away from my body
just enough to miss me
and maybe when i returned i'd find beauty within my angled face and peace when i'm on my own