If I depended on you for ,"you're beautiful, " "thats awesome babe" or I'm proud of you,
I'd die drowning in a sea of despair
Waiting for notice, but only from you.

Not seeking the center of worldly attention,
Not in public and not on line
I knew your value, I knew your worth
Have prayed for you to see mine

The words I pine for come in private
Or they should but never do
As hard as I try to be worthy of them
My desolation means nothing to you

You can't give praise without believing it
Because then it would just be a lie
I feel it...not coming from the heart
Like a child I lay there and  cry.

Ashamed of myself once again
For openly showing emotion to you,
Opening my heart is redundant
My broken heart's an attack on you?

Telling someone they hurt you
Should never end up in a fight
No comforting arms or wiped a tear
Always wrong and you're always right.

Used to say you had me on a Pedestal,
In private, not even a shelf
Unconditional love, now from you l dont need it,
Learned to put me up there myself.

No longer do you control me 
Nor tell me how I feel
God you are not, and he reminded me
He's the one who granted free will.

Suffering, my God, immensley I have
A little bent I will say but not broken
My voice, I took back, so now major repair
Build a new life..Yes I now have spoken!


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