People tell me
It's fine leave them when you are older
But the nights will be colder
The toxicity will be over
Your happiness will be high as a tower

Absence of a father is great
They tell me
You don't have people yelling at you
They tell me
It's better if he was dead before i was born
But he was the one to kill my joy
At the ripe age of 7

People tell me it's fine if your mother is-
Is what?
I am not sure of what to think
Toxicity or tough love
What will it be ?

Second choices , manipulation
Is it a sign she love me ?
Is it a sigh that kills me ?
Stockholm syndrome?
I am not sure
"Peope are bad I am good "
Is that phrase bad ?

Will you be the gothel ?
Am I the rapunzel?

Forgive me for sins I didn't commit
For thy I am a child which craves parental love
Hoping to get them from a man who is my lover .

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why do I write such good poems after I cry for hours ?
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