Dear Jay,
i dont hink you remember me. I use to be your biggest admirer. I loved the boldness that always seemed to stand out from the rest. You were one to not fear of anything and did everything. Nobody else understood you and ou didnt care. You loved to be a mystery to everyone around you. How could I blame you? it made life more interesting, walking around as a shadow. There was. nothing that stopped you from doing what you wanted and following your heart.

I almost didnt thought you as perfect,but now realizing that you were far from it. After a while, people started to get bored of you and i did too. But i couldnt just turn my head and ignore you!!! I was you! As much as I hated to admit it to myself I was you! I was the one who made others feel incompetent and worthless! I told people they should kill themselves and do everyone a favor! I let guys of any age use me for my body! I didnt care anymore...I hated everyone! Everyone hated me! What did life do tto make me so evil? What did anybody do to me? i gave no fucks for anybody's life....including mine!

I wanted out of my body...my mind! i wanted away from the pain I had to deal with and because I couldn't escape I made it hell for everyone else. I did everything without hesitation...fearless! I hate that word now! its a lie. everyone is fearful of something. i can't say I wasn't scared...