Words unsaid, struggling to say them.
Heart feels heavy for keeping them in, my breathe seems to be stuck in my throat for making my heart heavy.

I struggle alot but finally got the courage to say it all, and when I did.....
Nothing seems to have changed, the heart seems to have become heavier with a burning sensation in it.

"Move on, because I have already moved on." he said.

My heart got broken, pained and even at it's broken pieces it keeps burning and as it's burns, it keeps hurting each and every second.

I am scared,
Scared that I would get numb,
Scared that I would have trust issues,
Scared that no one would be able to enter my life because I would keep pushing them all away,
Scared that my pain will eat my whole emotions up that I end up having none,
Scared that I might give up,
Scared that I would detest love,
Scared that pain would become everything to me,
Scared that my crumbling life would not be able to come together anymore,
Scared that I would never move on and I would forever get stuck in the past,
Scared that the memories made would take away everything from me,
Scared I might want to leave the world and rest.
Rest where there would be no pain or people who would cause you pain.

© kaya_N