familiar prayer
deep breaths as the life drains like blood
down my arms 
out my heart and onto granite floor
in familiar environment 
same light, same room, same people 
deep breathes as they speak to me 
feeding insecurity 
doubt and shame, pain too familiar 
the need to breathe fuels the need to get out
"Lord, take me out of here"
i've breathed too many times
a prayer i've made my own,
my familiar prayer.

© chaya s.