scream
scream
scream
scream
I've been screaming for a while
at the top of my lungs as the sting in my eyes grow worse
but the problem is that it's never out loud, never for the world to hear
because why would I give them that power over me?
to hurt me more than they already have?
all the world knows how to do is take and take the very best part of you
and I'm tired of being a willing donor
always that shoulder to lean on, listening ear, carrier of everyone else's shit
but here I stand alone, drowning in mine
I'm human too you know?
I can barely keep myself up sometimes and no matter how hard I look there's no one
of course everyone has their lives to live and that's perfectly fine
but I do too dammit
if I can find the time to give pieces of myself
am I not worth the same?
I might be strong but I can only take so much
I hide
I hide
I hide
I push away, Ignore and lock in the deepest part of me when it hurts
when I want to keep bending over backwards like a complete fool
actions speak louder than words yeah?
well mine are about too
and Lord help me I come out of this with every piece of myself intact
cuz God knows I'm about to struggle not to plummet
but I absolutely refuse to live like this
if I have to shut everyone out I will
I absolutely will
I won't give the very best of me and end up withering away
if all I have is one person who gets it, who treats me like I do them, then that's enough, that's more than enough
but I don't
and even if for a while I won't
I absolute refuse to be this complete push over, not anymore
I won't be this person
not anymore.
© tonnaV
scream
scream
I've been screaming for a while
at the top of my lungs as the sting in my eyes grow worse
but the problem is that it's never out loud, never for the world to hear
because why would I give them that power over me?
to hurt me more than they already have?
all the world knows how to do is take and take the very best part of you
and I'm tired of being a willing donor
always that shoulder to lean on, listening ear, carrier of everyone else's shit
but here I stand alone, drowning in mine
I'm human too you know?
I can barely keep myself up sometimes and no matter how hard I look there's no one
of course everyone has their lives to live and that's perfectly fine
but I do too dammit
if I can find the time to give pieces of myself
am I not worth the same?
I might be strong but I can only take so much
I hide
I hide
I hide
I push away, Ignore and lock in the deepest part of me when it hurts
when I want to keep bending over backwards like a complete fool
actions speak louder than words yeah?
well mine are about too
and Lord help me I come out of this with every piece of myself intact
cuz God knows I'm about to struggle not to plummet
but I absolutely refuse to live like this
if I have to shut everyone out I will
I absolutely will
I won't give the very best of me and end up withering away
if all I have is one person who gets it, who treats me like I do them, then that's enough, that's more than enough
but I don't
and even if for a while I won't
I absolute refuse to be this complete push over, not anymore
I won't be this person
not anymore.
© tonnaV