Grief is such a dynamic thing
One minute its barely visible
The next I'm on my knees
I've learned, grief has many forms
Not all grief belongs to death
But mostly
I find myself in grief
Begging why
Why did life end so soon
Why couldn't I have more time
Grief is like the ocean
Miles wild and unpredictable
Some days I barely feel it
Other days I'm a mess because of it
Some say time heals the overwhelming feeling
But there's been plenty of time and the pain of losing you hasn't left me
I often ask myself why I didn't give you more of my time.
Time now I will never have.
I know you're happier and no longer in any pain, but there's a selfishness inside of me
I wish I could turn back the clock
I wish I wasn't so afraid to see you
Until it was too late.
Tonight the grief has me in its hold
It's overwhelming to say the least.
I wish I could give you one more call
I wish you were still here with me.
© Marie Releford