“Drowning like the sands at the shore of the seas
woke but stuck dreaming
aching down to the bones
hurting like I been fractured
can barely see beyond…”
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Been aching to put pen to paper
too lazy to write but I'll type
till the pages be filled with my crazy
thoughts that's stuck before my vision like a rolling clip

Tip of my fingers bleed
like T you don pushed the limits
can't lie to you dear page
it's become pretty hazy in my mind

I'm sinking so fast can barely keep up
it's crazy sick how initially it was only an itch to scratch
and now it's become my fingers demise
my minds fracture unveiled like a runway show

Come take a look, she's lost it all over again
broken with cracks to let the crazy slide through
I promise I'm freaking okay
I just lose my shit every once in a while

Itching to put words on pages
till my eyes bleed out my heart in rhymes
with an ache driven by holes
holes I drilled in me with my wretched thoughts
holes that no longer close even when my eyes folds

I guess this is my way of saying sorry
I'm sorry I took up my pen
converted that to hands
stuck clipping through my keyboard.
© Amanah Saais