So you say you don't want to break me?huh?
You can make sure you didn't.
Trust me.
And no our relationship won't change.
Not at all.

These are beautiful lies,not like you.
You were a lie to me almost all the time.
And no you really didn't break me.
But I want to break you.
I know we're still besties but I want revenge.
I want to feel sweet revenge.
The sweetest.

I want you to beg me to love you.
You'll be like a little bird in a cage.
Wanting to go,but where?
I would let you go.
Into a bigger cage.
Next to my demons so they would eat you.

That's my way of letting you go.
I hold onto you for long enough now.
But a sparrow isn't strong enough for a demon to hold.
I want to shatter your heart to a million little pieces.

And make those little pieces into a work of art.
Give it to you.
Oh sorry I won't give ot to you.
You're already in a grave.
I let you go...
I didn't hold on anymore...

I don't know if I ever loved you tho...
I want to forget you.
I can't because our relationship won't change.
Atleast that's what I told you...
It feels weird that I loved you.
Well,not anymore.

I want to make you my bird who will beg for me to let them go.
Even tho I never hold onto you.
You were just blind to see the facts.
Blind from the fake emotions.
The ones from you and the ones from me too.
I won't cry for you.
I'm listening to break up songs but we didn't break up.
We were never even together.

#HoldingOn

© Tortise