My past often screams at night to forgive it :
to forgive it for making some blunt decisions ,
to forgive it for ruining certain brights years ahead ,
to forgive it for not showing the right path precisely ,
to forgive it as now a new life can't be started from that initial scratch ,
all is now I have to live in my present ,
accepting all my blunders .

My past often weeps to forgive it
but
today...