It has been a while I've enjoyed my life,
Day by day I am in search of a trenchant knife,
Each and every sunrise has become rife,
Causing my whole day a kind of subtle strife,
That I couldn't absorb any more and want to deprive,
I have been trying a lot to cure myself,
To put myself in a healthy zone and away from that horrible shelf,
But I am trapped,
I am trapped between the four walls,
Where I am defeating my merriment every second and fighting a war,
I don't know with whom I am confronting,
But I just know one thing that anyhow I'm losing,
I don't want to lost myself and be abandoned,
I want to be the reason and want someone to gladden,
Towards me I do want them to heeded,
I have no idea how far I still have to go to approach my destination,
I don't want my end, but I do want to end this devastation,
This annoyance, anger, hollowness, bitterness are the reason of my collapsion.
I do have a plenty of gleeful and amiable memories,
But I don't understand why these moments never freeze,
Though I won't live that long but I do wish to revive these nostalgia for centuries.
Now a days it seems like I am all alone on this journey,
It's so tough to find a person to lean on that it feels like travelling from Earth to Mercury,
Well I know that's quite funny,
But that's the cruel truth and reality of my life that's entirely blurry,
All these happenings and ongoing situations has keep on pricking my soul,
My life has become a burning coal,
I interrogate myself every night and troll,
To reach an unacquainted spot,
I really want to tell that I am paying an eccentric cost,
Just to find my own self that has been lost.


© Dhruvi Kantariya