How can I tell myself I'm sorry
when I choose to laugh and drink
at somebody's funeral?
Is it okay for the grieving mother
watching me smile at her
whilst her world's crushing down?
How can I be this cruel?

How devilish I am to give her
a cremation urn for her lost son
as a gift and not white flowers.
Is it okay if I force my eyes to cry
and pretend to be sympathetic
when I don't really care?
I'm not a human, what am I?

How can I tell myself I'm okay
when I wish to laugh instead
then feel empathetic with her?
I know I'm heartless and cold
but this picture I create today
will be the same when I lie to rot.
Is it not okay for me to laugh now?

© Limatoshi Longkumer