Am I enough

I see myself fully
Marred, I am unwell

I can think physically
Cheeks too full
Eyes though vibrant green, too small
Odd shaped lips
A body curved in every wrong direction
Hair short, mess of curls
Faded scars
A hint to deeper imperfection.

Anxiety that needs constant support.
Depression taking the will to live
Each moment a labored breath
Scared to ask for help
Fear of being left behind.
Wanting to end it all
But not hurt anyone else
Want to be noticed
And acknowledged
And cared about

Wanting to be alone
Away from everyone who I may burden
Afraid of fake smiles and empty laughs
Afraid I'm not enough

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