The past is something I cannot change, but the future is something I can. To show you I'm sorry, and this can be better, is all in my plan. I've loved you since before I saw you, I wanted you since before you even grew. My life was meant for you, before I even knew. I have so much I want to say, but before I do oh, I had to sit down and pray. Pray for strength, for forgiveness. You see, there is so much I had missed. I don't know if I can ever really express just how truly sorry I am for this. You see, when I have planned for you... I had planned for me too. My son and I, side-by-side, until the end of time. You were never meant to see some of the things you were shown. You were never meant to be left alone. You were never meant to pick me up, I was supposed to be all of your strength, until you were all grown up. You've been the strongest little boy that I've ever known. I'm sorry you had to grow up so quick, I'm sorry that I was so sick. I'm sorry for the times that you were taking care of me when I should have been taking care of you. I'm sorry for what and all I had put you through. I love you! These words are more than true. I want to be all that I can be, all that you need, just for you. I want and need you to know that even at my very worst, you have always been my shining star, in my heart and never ever far! I had to get better for me, so I could be better for you. This is written for my little boy. Mommy always loves YOU!!!

© Teresa Taylor

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