When the pains came kicking,
All that I could think of was my happy moments,
Bit by bit,
My body became weak,
Do I fight them?
Rather not.

I mean, I did this.
Life could no longer make sense,
I cried way too much that I couldn't anymore,
"How could you do this to me"
"Why are you doing this to me"

Deep and far as the voice felt,
But I could tell that it was mom,
"You wouldn't understand even if I was to explain"
I said to myself,
With tears running out of my eyes,
Life is no more for me.

I did all I could,
Slowly, I became unconscious,
Could this be the end?
Maybe, do I regret doing it?
Maybe I do, maybe I don't.

Do I care about my family?
Deeply,
But all that mattered less,
In a glimpse of an eye,
I woke up,
To a room full of lights,
A woman in a uniform,
Could I be the dead?

Unfortunately I am not,
Tears came running,
"Why, why did you have to save me?"
I said to myself,
Pain, Pain after pain,
Suicide was all that I could think of,
Ofwhich I failed.
Do you blame me?
It was just too much
© Thato Mangwegape