If someday you wonder,
why i remain lost in infinity?
which I sense mostly while carrying on my reality.
It is because...
I am drugged.
Not what you think of but
A heart this heavy is my drug.

As the days have passed
and that did not work.
I decided to take on something more potent to calm my nerves.

I thought a lot and searched many
than decided to smoke relentlessly.
By every means it is not the same you think dear.
What I smoke I don buy,
it is as free as my sadneas.
My clouded mind is my smoking
and my tears is the choking it gives me.

Jus to remind you,
I don wish to visit rehab for my profound addiction.
As the pills for this absurdity lie in the cabinet of your caring heart.
Just plant some assurance you call next time which may work wonder for this scarcity.
I am empty to the core, Oh please fill it with your honesty.
And yes kiss and make up is still an option i weigh on for this tragedy.