Every time I see the pain in your eyes,
A little part of my heart dies.
No matter how hard and how often you try,
All I seem to do is make you cry.

All I seem to do is be mean and cold,
To fail to cherish, fail to hold.
I seem to fail to put you first.
You act your best; I am my worst.

My mouth contradicts my heart.
My actions and thoughts so far apart.
I love you with every part of me,
Yet act so cruel and thoughtlessly.

I dream of you all night and day
And hang on every word you say,
Yet all you see is selfishness and arrogance,
Casual disdain and ignorance.

Assumption and judgment and everything's a test.
No matter what you do, you're always second best.
No matter how hard you try, it's never enough.
I never hear your protestations of love.

I say I love you and cherish all of our dreams,
Yet act as if I can't hear your screams
Of need and want and stability and trust.
My plans never materialize, my promises rust.

I scream at myself at how stupid I am
For risking your love, for risking your hand,
And I pray every day that you never see
That I need you more than you need me.

I bare my heart and my soul to you
To say sorry for what I did and for what I do.
I have no excuses and hide no more.
All I can offer is my love for evermore.

Sometimes I wonder what my world would be like
If I didn't have someone like you in my life.

I come back to reality only to see
That I wouldn't be myself...
without you... without me.

I am looking forward to the future,
I am hoping you'll be with me,
Growing old together and being happy as can be.

I want to spend the rest of my life making it right but it's up to you.
I know all of the pain that I've been putting you through.

I am sorry, and I can't say that enough,
But I hope that is the last time it will be rough.

I love you completely , with all of my heart,
I will love you forever, 'til death do us part.


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