Happiness is easy to lose,
it's like obtaining a bruise,
hits hard and hurts like hell,
an uncontrollable rush spell.
As it disappears, so does my interest
Until the void is filled, I'll be at my sickest.

Thoughts rattle in my head,
these feelings want me dead.
All I wanna do is play,
But no one gots any time to delay.
Pain and fear have me pinned,
Wasting space until it all ends,
Flawless is but a dream.
No morals, no sense of direction.
I just want to scream!

Lies made me what I'm not.
Always holding on to what I haven't got.
Sabotage plus misery are decaying my soul,
I just need to feel whole.
I'm hooked and can't let go,
No strength, no hope, non-existent, say it isn't so!

These disgusting habits, selfish behaviors, leave me undefined.
All I feel is left behind.
Sometimes I'm so full of shit,
that I should just get hit.

© REDS