it's getting suffocating, it's killing me from inside my heart overflows reaching to my eyes, as the tears fall down my cheeks

is it okay to not feel anything and yet everything at once? what if it's just me, what if it's all my fault? what if it gets worse? what if all he said was right?

My throat aches trying to hold all the tears.

My heart aches trying to not cry when he yells at me.

Yes we have the same DNA. No, I'll never call him a father. what do I call him? Abuser? Someone who has no

control over himself? A psychopath? Or even worse, someone whom I loved with my heart so full, and now it's just hatred, endless hatred.

it's okay if you feel the same way. Our feelings are valid.
© anshika