Help Me Say Goodbye
Something within me has shifted,
After the lies when I was mislead,
You broke me down when we broke up,
All of your abuse was just so fucked,
With tears in my eyes I continued to pray,
Despite the toxicity I begged you to stay
I was left an emotional mess,
Dreaming of the days asleep on your chest,
My heart yearned for you to come back,
But while my love grew, yours had lacked,
You treated me like you loved my pain,
And every time we talked you sounded insane,
The guy that I had given every bit of my heart,
Is now a monster who craves ripping me apart,
For the way I was treated you blamed me,
You said I was the reason and I should bleed,
Although you never hit me to cause me harm,
The emotional damage had me alarmed,
You had no remorse for your sickening words,
You weren’t sorry your judgement was blurred,
I tried begging for you to stop,
Only to be told that I would be dropped,
I tried to warn a few of your peers,
But they didn’t listen, your lies filled their ears,
I don’t know why I wasn’t enough,
Or why getting over you has been so tough,
You agreed to see me but only for pleasure,
Despite my fears, I took the measure,
When not in person at your service,
You tear me down so that I feel worthless,
You say that I mean nothing to you,
And lie to me like I don’t have a clue,
I know everyone says I deserve better,
But all I want is to be cuddled in your sweater,
I can’t get you out of my mind,
But someone like you is impossible to find,
I’ve tried to move on but no one compares,
I even let you convince me to dye my hair,
I swear I would’ve done anything for you,
I gave you everything I could think of too,
I tried my best to treat you like a king,
And now you’ll only see me for a fling,
I miss cradling your face and kissing your lips,
I hate that we always fight like this,
I spend my days wanting you back,
But a voice in my head says to stay on track,
I fixed myself and turned things around,
Started to rebuild myself up from the ground,
Although I miss you and wish you were here,
I’m preparing myself for a better year,
I know I have to let go of it all,
I finally began to love myself this fall,
I’m slowly gaining strength to leave,