I face a cliff edge
Without knowledge of what lies at the bottom of this chasm
This is the end of myself
All my wounds have been felt
Tenfold through the medications
I resigned myself to
I’ve built years upon years upon years
Of ammunition to use against anyone
Uncomfortable but familiar
Is still better than unknowns
Holding myself to unattainable goals
Making promises I cannot keep
I’ve come to the end
And I no longer want to go back again
What I know won’t give me growth
That familiarity doesn’t bring hope
But I won’t cast myself off
I’ve said there’s no cost
I’m not willing to walk through
But there’s a part of me that’s scared
That desires to prepare
But that’s no excuse
I believe in what I have to do
So instead of cowering away
All chains will break
When I leap
From the desires and death in me
I’ve got to let go and run
Towards the death of me
I long to be free
Deep down
Leave this solid ground
Everything that has held me back
Now I will use to attack
The towers that I built as spires
To pierce the sky
To be a defense against the unknown
To keep everything in motion
Everything locked up
Drowned by pornography
Everything locked up
Drowned in misery
Everything locked up
Drowned in self-pity
I know that this requires faith
Soon I will jump and pray
That Father You catch me
May I walk with an ease
Never seen in my step
The sun won’t go down on this day
Before somethings changes
Preparation is putting armour on
To fight against attack after attack
This time there is a part of me
That holds me back
But I won’t let it control me
Jump and I’ll see the plans for me
Jump and I’ll see the fight in me
The time keeps ticking down
I’ve many tools to help me survive
But I desire to thrive in this life
As a faithful son
Who steps where no path is
Visible to the naked eye
I face a cliff edge
That I will not fear
The time to jump
Trust and believe that You are near is here
© MattDyver