A letter to happiness
Hey sweetheart, it's been a while hasn't it?
It's been so long I felt your presence, hasn't been as bright around here

It's probably cuz you can't exist where I am now
It's too dark
Too lonely
I can barely find myself sometimes

I'm trying to find my way back to you instead but it's hard
I miss your embrace
I'd trade them for the moments I can barely breathe
I miss the comfort you bring
That only seems to exist in my dreams now, when my head is free of everything else

I'm writing this letter because I miss you
Because I'm lost and afraid and I don't know what to do
Because these days I barely remember how it felt to have you
Where I am now has been my reality far too long and it's crippling

I want to be everything we talked about
To be fearless
Faithful, strong

I want to believe that it won't always be this dark

But it's hard

I miss you
I need you

I just want to be happy

But what's funny is I believe I will

Maybe slowly, but surely

Maybe on other days I'll drown

But other days it'll be easier to breathe

Not so dark anymore

Maybe someday I'll remember what it feels like to be wrapped in your embrace because that's where I'll be

So I'm fighting love, to make it back to you.


© tonnaV