The darkest hour of My life
It came upon Me like a strange lullaby
Out of tune
But nonetheless
It hit Me like 23 years tons the load
I couldn't carry its weight
I knew that I was truly
No longer his wife.

The numb death of Meth meth
Meth.
For weeks I stayed in that room.
My cat and the roaches my only Company
I never came nor left.
Losing my mind felt like a rubber band
Snapping twice
Then it brought an odd peace
Not mean or nice
I had been used for all my life as nothing
More than a device
I didn't know I had been screaming
Picking on the floor
I thought I knew once but
Now there was no meaning
Just bleeding bleeding bleeding
Begging of My God.
Pleading.
Because sanity like most things
Can be very misleading.
© Ellybwatts