say goodbye
one final time
tell me you love me with a twist of the knife
you left behind
stabbed deep in my spine
when you told me this was our final goodbye

tell me my love was abusive
I’ll tell you how you always used it
wake me up just to break down
but when I do you just turn it around
how was I supposed to love you
if your love was never true
and I would ask you
if we were good, you’d say we’re fine
while that pain deep in your mind
built up like pressure
hard to confine
hard to confide
when all I ever did
was try so hard to hide
how I was feeling
how you made me feel
cause men aren’t supposed to open up
just pretend that this was real
until it’s not
but still im caught
by the lies and hard goodbyes
by somebody that already forgot

say goodbye
on final time
you said you loved me, what a fucking disguise
you left behind
a knife in my spine
when you told me this was our final goodbye

I left that text on read
let those words bounce around in my head
like ricochets from bouncing bullets
pretty soon I’m sure I’ll be dead
remembering every lie that you said
truth is you never really loved me at all
shut me down every time I noticed it’s false
had nothing to start and nothing to fade
nothing at all, you’re nothing, go away
get out of my mind and let me escape
when you said forever it was just a mistake
cause you are always in my way
on the tip of my tongue
some bullshit excuse as to why we are done
tell me don’t hate me was a slap in the face
cause every thought of you brings so much rage
finally I’m cut loose from the cage
but I still regret asking you to stay
just for a moment and begging you to say

goodbye
one final time
relieve me of this loveless disguise
leave me behind
with the knife in my spine
engraved with our final goodbye

just say goodbye
one final time
you said you loved me, what a fucking surprise
just tell me lies
sing sweet lullabies
forget me and then leave me behind
rip out the knife
you left in my spine
when you told me this was our final goodbye

you said please don’t hate me
while you cried into my arms
told me I wasn’t enough
and you didn’t mean any harm
I’m alarmed
unrequited
unsure of myself
when love was harder to fake
than my crippling mental health
I’m unwell
staring into the brink
that lies in the bottom of this bottle
swollen tonsils I still drink
as my tears fall into the sink
I’m only left to think

was it a lie
or a final good bye
a mistake to ever let you inside
I’ll think twice
for the rest of my life
I hope this is our final goodbye