she wakes up everyday and feels the same way.
just a waist of space, trying to understand why she's even still here.
she has no purpose.
atleast that she knows of.
her heart hurts,
she feels like the weight of the world is on her shoulders everyday.
shes sad at times,and numb others. never wanting to cry. or show any emotions.
that shows she's weak. and can't handle her self.
thats not how she was raised.
her dad always said suck it up babygirl. there's nothing worth crying about.
your stronger then that.
some days she wants to just hide and be left alone in a dark room just her and her own thoughts to brew.
other days she wants all the attention in the world to be loved and kissed on with warm cuddles from the one person that she loves and trusts the most.
that hasn't left her.
like everyone else has.
at certain times she even wants to die cause she knows she's not repairable.
knowing all she's goin to do is ruin another person's life for them coming into life.
leaving isn't an option though for she's in love and doesnt want to hurt him.
fighting for who you love always is.
you just have to figure out how you can go about it. and weither or not they even want it.
I want it but know somewhere down the line and in time. he will leave just like they all do.
she's hard to love when she fails to love herself.
her heart is big.
sometimes to big.
when she loves she gives it her all.
but most people don't love back.
not the same way anyway.
she knows most people judge her by her looks and her personality.
or just straight don't like her. for whatever reason.
she's used to that.
it's always been like that.
for as long as she can remember.
people always come around but never stay for very long.
she knows its because of her. but wonders what the next excuse is going to be outa the next person's mouth.
she's tired of the excuses and tired of the...