I wanna be you.

It's hard being me...

My head is fucked up

in ways you can't see...

I wanna be happy.

Too many tears I have cried...

I wanna give up sometimes

But I have too much pride

I wanna be someone

you notice is gone.

I wanna be the person

with whom you belong.

I wanna laugh every day

And never feel sad.

I wanna be your best friend

Even when shit gets bad

I wanna be beautiful

Inside and out

I wanna know you love me

without a doubt

I wanna be responsible,

I wanna be smart

I wanna work harder

to finish what i start

I wanna be a better mom

to my little girl

I wanna be the one she runs to

when things go wrong in her world.

I wanna be heard,

I wanna be strong,

I wanna remember

I wanna live long...

I wanna be a better person

Because of you...

I wanna repay you

for all that you do.

I don't wanna go anywhere

unless you're there

I wanna be with you forever

I don't wanna share

I wanna feel warmth

in your embrace

I wanna be the cause

of the smile upon your face

I wanna be alone

Until people surround

Sometimes I get lost

and dont wanna be found

I don't wanna be forgotten

once I've died

I wanna be your shelter

And to whom you confide

I wanna exude confidence

To make you proud

I wanna be the sunshine

Dissipating your dark clouds

I wanna be different

Even if I seem strange

I wanna make a difference

I wanna cause change

I wanna be sane for once

and finally be free

I wanna be you

It's hard being me.

Heidi Shavill

2016