you've never been one to show much affection.
I used to think it was a lie when people said they didn't know how to love someone or show it. I never have known what its like to not feel nothing inside, or be empty and cold to the world. bc even at the times I've felt empty inside this shell of my body, my soul was still heavy with feeling the most of each emotion... and mannn the sadness and pain was almost more than I could bare. it still is at times. but that just means that the love I feel must be the deepest purest ever created and shared for someone.
it's always been my downfall... not being able to say no, feeling guilty or obligated for things, and not being capable of staying angry or hatred. I don't think I'm meant to.. it's...