Anxiety, what a funny word
Occurd, transferred, its absurd
It's been with me when I didn't know
Existing in the shadows like a crow
A companion who was there years ago
But now it won't leave me alone
With anxiety, there comes fright
A shocking wave of light
But not the good kind,
The one you fight to survive
And try to keep your sanity alive
It can be disguised as a sweet delight
Clinging to you most of the time
Camouflaging with your fears
But it's like a constant comfort near
Don't be fooled by its ability to appear
Sometimes it can be hard to make it disappear

Breathe in
Breathe out

My hands are shaking,
Lips quivering,
And again I'm a prey
Even though I didn't mean it that way
I'm a boiling pot filled to the brim
A single drop more and I'll overflow on a whim

Breathe in
Breathe out

I'm a victim
I'm shy,
I'm sensitive to the sunshine
I wish that was the case,
If only you knew what it takes
To stop my mind from overthinking
Every single Goddamn thing

Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out

Head pounding, spinning round and round
My chest and lungs filled with poisoned water
I can't breathe and that's all you are telling me that I need
Just breathe

Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out

My vision is blurry, mind cloudy
The panic feels like I'm dying,
suffocating inside
Yet in fine
The panic feels like I'm drowning
Over and over again
Choking on water
Plot twist that's my biggest fear,
I'm afraid
It is the definition of someone taking your breath away
Slowly drifting along the day
How am I supposed to breathe
When the air in the room
Is not made for me
But don't u dare to forget

Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out

My brain are two clouds
Pressed together
Expressing themselves
Through the change of weather
I'm okay
I keep repeating to my mentality
While the room is swallowing me alive
The walls are caving in
But I can't move an inch
I clench my fist,
My thoughts are exploding
Where am i?
I'm running and running
But I'm standing still
Shouting for help
But the sound doesn't spill
Crumbling to the floor
Until I can't hear anyone
Tears gushing down,
No control over my body
Feeling numb
And trying to escape the lobby
Don't panic it's okay
You got what it takes
Easy for you to say
When I feel trapped in my own mind
Like it's a cage
I am just trying to escape
I'm trying to breathe
But it feels like
My lungs are giving up on me

Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out

Until you can no more
Until your lungs are about to explode
And your heart reached the maximum goal
I'm not a victim or a prey
So don't look at me in that way
Like I'm some kind of a porcelain doll
Which can crumble when you touch it
Or whenever want.
I survived
Even though you didn't see that
I survived
Yet you do not know that
I survived
When I was fine
When my instinct and fear of my life inclined
For such a simple thing as writing on a piece of paper a few lines
I don't wanna seem weak
In front of everyone I meet
But that's the reality
When your friend is anxiety
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